Proof of Life

I haven’t posted here in over a month and I’ve gotten several calls and e-mails lately from friends who are checking on me because I haven’t been here, so I thought I’d better let everyone know I’m still alive. First, let me say thank you for the concern, and I can’t tell you what it does for my soul to hear how much you have enjoyed and are missing my posts. I’m so glad God can use my crazy mixed up life to bless others! I didn’t really plan this, but over the last few weeks I’ve just really felt a need to back off on my media consumption. I have spent a fraction of my normal time on facebook, twitter, my blog, watching TV, and even listening to the radio. Not a complete fast, but I’ve definitely tried to be more intentional about how I spend my time. Many mornings on my drive to work I just turn off the radio and try to tune in to God. He’s doing a lot in my heart and mind and life right now, but I’m still listening and sorting through it all. I have continued to journal and I’ve written some fun things that I may post eventually, but right now I’m just enjoying a little peace and quiet in my alone time and I’ve really tried to focus a little more on my real life relationships.

There’s one more thing I just had to share. The last few days I haven’t felt up to par and I’ve had a lot of extra stress going on. Today was one of those days that I just wanted to stay in bed and not face the world. I had no choice but to get up and I wanted to find something to wear that didn’t touch me anywhere. Most women can relate to that feeling. (Sorry guys, you’re probably clueless on that one.) Anywhoo, that’s not exactly possible when I’m dressing for work, but when I got home tonight I grabbed one of my former favorite t-shirts and a pair of comfy shorts out of my drawer. When I put the shirt on it was just what I needed – something that doesn’t touch me anywhere. I looked in the mirror and I had to smile. Not because I look good. Obviously, I don’t but this shirt used to fit me. I took a picture and even though it’s really bad, I have to share it. I would never wear this shirt in public now and it feels really good.